My Eid pics/my trip

wish he would call me :)

To Zara

I sat in silence, on the river bank
My boredom just vanished
I let my mind go blank
Erasing the moment I cherished

I felt the drops of rain
As it caressed my cheeks
I let the feelings drain
That I had felt for weeks

Soaked to the skin I walked
Towards the path I came
Where we met n talked
And later shouted with shame

The sun peaked among the clouds
I let my self drown in the light
And ran into the city of crowds
Singing and dancing, feeling bright

Let Go: To my best friend Shany

: this is a grafitti i drew ..its for you symbolizes moving on through storms n calmness.

As we believe life is a series of moments in which we experience lots of things which may change our perceptions, opinions and attitude. The decisions we make may result in unexpected consequences and challenges. When happy moments pass we are not aware of it and it is hard to let go. we waste our energy dwelling on past and waiting for the moment to come again. This results in lack of hope and self esteem and opens our life to depression and sadness cripples it.We make choices in wrong ways. The question is why do we let it happen to us? Outer accomplishments hardly give way to permanent happiness or contentment/ it is temporary. First of all, inner ever lasting happiness comes from with in our selves, form our heart. We have to do this by devoting ourselves to God. There is no obstacle between us and God. There is none who can fulfill our dreams and give us inner peace other than him. This will help us to learn to let go it was not meant to be. Learn to be in control. Feel that you have the control to make things right. God has something good in store for us. Have faith, let go and grasp what he has in store for you. You will know it when the time comes. I have the feeling that it is going to happen soon. I have hope and I give all my hope to you. smile :)

one of my favourites

CHANGES

a girl climbed up the tree
jumped down a roof
jumped over puddles
ran every day in the sun
so wild so adventurous
without care or worries
a young gal danced on stage
and acted in Shakespeare plays
got involved in sports
a young gal got conscious
about her clothes, her appearance
a young girl started looking
for an identity of herself
alone with her grandma
a young gal went off to bed
crying, thinking of her parents
a young gal grew without parents
her parents was her grandmother
a young girl hated walking on the road
she felt eyes piercing into her body
her ears opened to what she heard
people stare, spread rumours
drew a picture of her that she never knew
judgmental people were hard to avoid
a young girl had to walk alone
had to survive alone it was hard
slowly her ears became deaf
her eyes went blind
she stopped feeling conscious
she had to survive alone
she fought back not with words
but silence, grieving inside
breaking apart not knowing answers
for all the questions she had in mind
a young gal fell in love once
felt the joy of being loved
hand in hand she enjoyed
till her heart was broken
then she burried it deep inside
but the love grew again
for almost seven years
emotionally tortured
the world grew dark for her
it became cruel, to avoid
she lost her innocence
she became strong
she had to find the will power
to stand alone to cross barriers
a women found pleasure
in the little ones she taught
they showed her a world
full of love and inspiration
spending time at home was a disaster
a woman flew away to study
came back and wanted to start a good life
she was praised in her job
talented and creative
thats how people described her
a woman started thinking about life
took responsibilities and made decisions
some right and some wrong
a woman met different people
who hurt her again but this time
she was able to cope ,with dignity
a woman lost her grand mother
the love of her life
she fell apart, devoted herself
to God,she prayed for her love
a woman felt empty and alone
inside four walls she grieved alone
a woman got busy with her passions
lived cos she had to but became strong
a woman almost gave up on life
till her hand was held by someone
she was led gently
into the comfort of someone's arm
the damsel in distress
was carried away by the knight
a woman was shown a better path
for her patience, courage and faith
a woman felt for the first time
after death of her grandma
that her world has been taken care of
by the one who loved her
the one who took her hand
and gave his whole life to her

:(

today i felt so let down ..something that i am expecting to happen that m looking forward to won't happen... all these days ive been planning and dreaming about this event... any way let me leave it to God...he might have a better plan for me... i need to move on with what life has given me..n pray.. now i am shutting my mind and erasing all the feelings ..i am used to this ..i have learnt to be patient...its a hard thing but i will try :S

The best steps: by leen

I was searching high and low
For the one I have dreamt for
Never knew and realised before
You were the one I've been waiting for
You have been the one missing
Meeting you was a good blessing
Now that i have found you
I will never let go of you
The best step I took in life
was the day i took your hand for life
Uniting in a sweet bond forever
Have never felt lucky, ever
Honey be mine till the end
My life, my love, my husband

the sweet mail

i was thinking abt you all day, was in class n suddenly saw this on the floor, well like they say if ur in love the whole world would seem to be in love too. mmmwwwwwaaaa really really miss u, i've started to to lil planes for our honeymoon, insha allah i'll be in male on feb ingey dhooneee, mmmmwwwaaaa. love you (attached is the pic)

Abaya

for days ive been imaginin my self in abayas..m tryin 2 like it ...so i check videos n browse the net

to you- by leen

wish i could have tails n fins like a mermaid
so i can swim my way to you into the Arabian sea
or get the magic carpet of Aladdin to fly to you
wish i could be the wind , i can whisper through your window
or the sun to give you light to brighten your day
i wish i was the moon,to watch upon u as u sleep
or save you from the darkness of the shadows that loom
i wish i could be heavy clouds to pour on u n feel ur body
or give u shelter from the drought and protect you
i wish i was your heart so i could beat for eternity
and feel love always the love we have for each other
i wish Allah would keep us bonded forever n ever

loneliness: by leen

its always beside me from the time u were gone
emptiness n fear is felt all over again
im not complete i wanna be whole again
come into my arms so i can sleep again
come lets be one again, lie in each others arms
n whisper loving words, give protection in our wings
my eyes are sinking..weariness endure, disoriented
want the time to stop n move it to the moment
when i hear the deep voice n consolation
my eyes r heavy, my days are lonely
come soon before i drown in the evil emptiness

feel like laughin so i m watchin this at 3: 31am in the morning ..Obamas speech is hillarious

truly beautiful...touched...:)

surathul Yaseen

i miss u

You r not here tonight and i am missing you.This cannot be explained with words because my heart is so low ..extremely down...n when i called u ...i just didn't like what u said . though u said u loved me something u said showed that u donno me still .. any way i don't blame u.. we have differences :(

A friend's feelings...he shared this with me... when i read this i felt like i was present there .... n the waves really caressed my feet

Have you seen the sky as the clouds joins up! as it covers the sun, such a darkness it shows, and there comes the moment that you think that this world shall never see light no more, while the heavy rain pours upon you, without mercy, yet after a few minutes the clouds depart and down descends the mighty rays of the sun, shining upon you, and let you forget what have just taken place..



Have you seen the waves! As the gather up like a ragging storm, with the scary sound, building up so high, driving fear into your heart? Yet they slow down, calmly come and gently kiss your feet, and fades away with the natural harmony and musical tone soothing your heart...



Have you had that feeling! when everything falls apart, when everyone turns against you, with all your problems, you toss and turn trying to sleep, painful far more worse than death it seems, yet after a while you drift far from reality, as if nothing have happened, sweet moments of love and calmness takes over you, and you keep wishing that those dreams may never come to an end, or it be true… waking with a strong aim and bravery, yet for another day to fight through…..

With the wish soon, very soon it’ll all be fine.



Waves form like raging storms

Yet they end in a peaceful harmony, what a spectacular scene!!

missing

I went to my sisters weddin to colombo with my family.. there i found how wonderful it was to have fun with sisters, baby niece brother in laws n mom..the party was great ...n the islamic way of gettin married there was so different as well..it was very interestin.. i learnt a lot... during this trip i realised somethin else that confused me a lot.. i was missing someone so much...i kept calling n smsin him till i realised what was happening....i kept on n on askin my self questions n i got to the core of why this was happening..it was cos during my sick time in Male till i left ..only he checked on me, asked whether i took medication n i felt closer to him .it gave me a feeling that someone is out there who cares about my well being ..n all ... i wonder why i missed him ..he was far away whether it be lanka or maldives.. wasnt he still far???but i had this feeling that i was going far away.. hehe funny ... some emotions are hard to understand ...now again its me only n this computer which connects me to the people who care n whom i feel close to ..comin back to home land is terrible.. i miss my family n the happy times. Uyoon loabee miss u a lot baby niece mmmmwuah!!! hope ur sleepin like an angel

HERO

LOVELY SONG I LOVE THE LYRICS N THE WAY IT WAS SUNG BY MARIAH CARRIE

Mariah Carey Lyrics
Hero Lyrics

A golden oldy : Smokie: who the f** is Alice?

can remember dancing with sharaj to this..i was so young n innocent.. so afraid to fall in love with u ..i wish i had but now its too late..i donno in which corner of the word u r :)


Sally called when she got the word,
She said: "I suppose you've heard -
About Alice".
Well I rushed to the window,
And I looked outside,
But I could hardly believe my eyes -
As a big limousine rolled up
Into Alice's drive...

Oh, I don't know why she's leaving,
Or where she's gonna go,
I guess she's got her reasons,
But I just don't want to know,
'Cos for twenty-four years
I've been living next door to Alice.
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Twenty-four years just waiting for a chance,
To tell her how I'm feeling, maybe get a second glance,
Now I've got to get used to not living next door to Alice...
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Grew up together,
Two kids in the park,
Carved our initials,
Deep in the bark,
Me and Alice.
Now she walks through the door,
With her head held high,
Just for a moment, I caught her eye,
As a big limousine pulled slowly
Out of Alice's drive.

Oh, I don't know why she's leaving,
Or where she's gonna go,
I guess she's got her reasons,
But I just don't want to know,
'Cos for twenty-four years
I've been living next door to Alice.
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Twenty-four years just waiting for a chance,
To tell her how I'm feeling, maybe get a second glance,
Now I gotta get used to not living next door to Alice...
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Sally called back, asked how I felt,
She said: "I know how to help -
Get over Alice".
She said: "Now Alice is gone,
But I'm still here,
You know I've been waiting
For twenty-four years..."
And the big limousine disappeared...

I don't know why she's leaving,
Or where she's gonna go,
I guess she's got her reasons,
But I just don't want to know,
'Cos for twenty-four years
I've been living next door to Alice.
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Twenty-four years just waiting for a chance,
To tell her how I feel, and maybe get a second glance,
But I'll never get used to not living next door to Alice...
Alice, who the fuck is Alice

Now I'll never get used to not living next door to Alice...

ur presence

as i stand here where we met...i can feel ur presence....i close my eyes so i can view u closer....ur picture can be drawn now, u r smiling....memories came flashing back....
a girl was roaming in the darkness...till she got comfort in ur arms.....feeling of ur presence lighted her universe....without u something was missing.....she was disoriented till u guided her....your trust was an achievement of her happiness.
i opened my eyes...each and every flower smells of ur memories....i can feel, the world around me is awake cos of ur memories....in the journey of my life ur the destination.. i headed towards home, ur presence became my shadow....it followed me.... where ever i go i will always feel ur presence

BYE bye

today i made the determination to say bye to u
salaam

obstacles

for some people obstacles in life r greater. i have crossed over lots of obstacles through difficulty n without complaining. Do these obstacles help us make life better? or do these make us feel so fed up that we feel, our life is meaningless? hmmn we tell ourselves that life goes on and as long as it is going on we have to move on with what life bestows upon us. To do this we have to be strong and we can get this strength from only Almighty Allah. we need to pray for God to give us strength and be patient with what we get. be content with what we have. be thankful that we r not handicapped. be thankful that we have a shelter over our heads and be thankful cos our basic needs are fulfilled.appreciate what we have than what we don't have. think about people who r living a far worse life than us...think think think ..thats all i can think of now ...

A reason for everything

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.


And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to.



Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Share this with anyone whom you believe
has made a difference in your life!

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.

GO OUT AND LIVE YOUR LIFE(www.dobhran.com/greetings/GRinspire407.htm)

today m depressed than i've ever been before so i made this

RUMORS

I’m fighting someone elses war
Ive been forced to it so far
Dragged to it through rumour
Makes a person lose humour

It can change an innocent
Into a devil, and torment
It can be very painful
It’s so cruelly dreadful

I have lost my identity
What about my own dignity
no matter what I explain
they made me fail in vain

It forces people to believe
What it wants them to believe
Paints a different picture of me
For the whole world to see

I’m glad I have friends
They are dearer than the fiends
See me through their eyes
Find the truth behind lies

I’m glad that I have you
Dear family I love you
For you m a sweet sister
And to mom a loving daughter

They can never be victims
Of the rumours that kills
So here I think of u my closest
You show me a world, the sweetest

As I close my eyes I rest
With the blanket of thought so best
And cover my self to deep sleep
God protect me,I shall never weep

FLICKR TURNS 4

last night went to celebrate "flick turns 4"!!! was lovely socializing


view in www.mshafeeg.blogspot.com

The Beginning of 2008. happy :) new year

m watchin the new years sunrise

On new years eve i broke up with my boyfriend. No stresss. I did not shed a tear. Why should i? for someone who isn't worth it?.. just planned ahead for the next day.As the daylight passed i borrowed my sisters lovely red dress and headed off to celebrate new year with my best friend and her family. we played secret friend so we exchanged gifts and started enjoying as soon as the music band arrived. the band was not so good but we just went on dancing till one. Dancing made me loose all my worries and stress. i went on moving the body along with the rythm with a lot of energy. I believe though our mind is stressed and our body is tired happiness boosts the energy and its only when we stop that we realise how tired we r. nevertheless after finishing the party i came home in a taxi but still i was full of energy and feeling like having fun. however, there wasnt anyone to have fun with so i went up to my apartment and felt the emptiness again. always see the glass as half full..be optimistic...be thankful that cows don't fly..i kept reminding my self and got into internet...next, went going through flickr and started chattin there. As darkness fell and it was time for the sun to rise i felt like going to see the first sunrise but how?? aaah i remembered the only guy who would be awake at dawn to take photos.i got in touch with him and asked him to take me along. We walked all the way chatting to the lonuziyaaraiyy kolhu and waited for the sun to rise. as it rose he started taking photos and i requested for a photo of mine. you can see me in the pic above. photography is my passion so we went on clicking till we reached the sea house which was the only place open at that time, sat at a corner table, felt the breeze and watched the boats, ferries moving and saw the fishermen leaving to catch fish for the day. It was a perfect beginning and i was glad that i followed my heart , mind and decided to go out in the morning. i was also glad that i took a photo for reesham who is far away. i gave the title " its good to have company" cos it matched the photo.. the dhonmoosa was giving company to the flower.hmmmn with a smile i jumped into bed and drifted off to sleep.
saw this from sea house that morning
to reesham :)